Do we all ask this question or is it just me? I certainly hope I am not alone in this. Well – where have I been? I have been losing the same damn weight again!!! Yesterday morning, I weighed 189. This is an old old story but I’m telling it anyway. The trade show weigh in served as a carrot for me and I faithfully followed that carrot right up to that scale on Sunday at noon and then when I got the carrot suddenly, I was eating. That mindless eating — though I don’t know what to think about that — Do only fat people mindlessly eat? Or does everyone mindlessly eat and only some people get fat doing it? Who knows and it does not really matter.Â
Anyway, I ate myself back up to 198 and have lost it again so even though I have lost a total of 25 pounds, I only get credit for 16 because I had to lose the same nine lbs. twice. I could cry at the number of times that I have done this in my life but NO, I will not, because their is a victory in this — I did not wait until I had gained all the weight back plus more before I put the kabosh on it. So that is a big YAHOO!!Â
Now as to my timeline, I’m 18 weeks in having only lost 16 pounds but I think I will catch up soon because I have rededicated myself and this time, I’m trying real hard not to have a carrot. The only carrot is my health and happiness and of course, in June, when I have achieved my goal, a tatoo and parasailing and some bikini wearing.Â
I’ve already bought the bikini and it is hanging in my bathroom so that I see it each time I get on the scale. I can’t decide if it motivates me or irritates me. I got a really funny card from Sally Brewster encouraging me in my weight loss effort and the woman is laying on the bathroom mat wit her feet in the air and the scale balanced on her feet. I tried it and guess what, you weigh 3 lbs. There is something about weighing 3 lbs. that is just as scary as weighing too much.
I’ve gotten two new books I need to spend some time with — I think I have already mentioned The Dorm Room Diet by Daphne Oz from Newmarket. Her dad, Mehmet Oz is the Oprah Doctor. And this beautiful book: The Total Wellbeing Diet by Noakes & Clifton from NAL - I have not had a chance to look at it but will be spending alot of time with it in the next week.
I’m working out every day and eating healthy whole foods. Actually, that is the easy part. The hard part is holding the right thinking and attitude to not sabotage myself. Finally, I have a SIBA project that was inspired by the Oprah Pay it Forward Challenge and I am getting so excited about that and I find having something important to do helps me take right actions. You will be hearing more about that soon. Until next time…
#1 by Deb Andolino on November 4, 2006 - 8:03 am
Hang in there. You have a good bunch of people behind you. And regaining the weight happens to all of us — however, you are the one who had the courage to lose it again — you could have felt you couldn’t do it and quit but you hung in there and lost even more than you had regained. I’m proud of you!!
Deb
#2 by Susan on November 4, 2006 - 8:38 am
Wanda – I think all of us have been and are at that point – we all need something like a deadline to keep us on track – I just got the new book you on a diet as the waist seems to be my latest issue – among others….. but it does have good info – I can say my biggest motivator is exercising – once I start, I get addicted and my only problem is keeping myself on track -making it my priority – if I do that then the dieting seems to fall into place – sometimes I think limiting the amount of times you get on the scale helps too – although not getting on it at all can be a big mistake – because before you know it ….. anyway – keep up the good work !!! I hopefully will get to meet you at the atlanta siba event.
Susan
#3 by Margaret Osondu on November 6, 2006 - 9:30 am
Wanda:
When I read your blog I am inspired by it’s truthfullness. The release of numbers and the sense of health. I think about weight and the number of pounds I weigh and I hear the greek chorus singing in my head, She’s too fat, she’s too fat, what about that! You know what I mean. Thanks for blogging. I wish you wonderful health and lots of self approval!!!!!!!!!
Margaret
#4 by Steve Jewell on November 7, 2006 - 6:48 am
Wanda, I could tell how proud of yourself you were at the weigh in to be 189.
You gained some back, yet here you are back at the weight where you were most excited and proud
of yourself. Honestly, I am more proud of you now than I would have been if you would
have just kept on losing. What wonderful discipline to recognize and react when you
could have easily kept on sliding. Having said that, if you need someone to scold you when you
start sliding, just give me a call, I have much little brother payback for you! I love you.
Steve
#5 by Julie Graddy on November 7, 2006 - 11:24 am
Wanda, There’s nothing wrong with you. You’re just human. Speaking as a person who has lost the same weight over and over and finding I need to do it again, here’s the most successful “trick” that I’ve used. Just do one thing differently today, whether it’s eating one less cookie, leaving off the cheese or a piece of bread, or taking a long walk — whatever. For some reason, when I do that, it gets me back into he the present, and I can accept the start of the journey of a thousand steps (which is really constantly beginning). Julie